Mind Body Health Coaching and Transformation
So, I frequently rushed into the shower just to cry quietly and in peace, away from my children and husband. The ironic part was that on paper my life looked great. I had a great job. Professional recognition. A beautiful and healthy family. My social media filled with smiling faces and pictures of travel. My friends would tell me I had it all, but secretly I thought “if only you knew”. I had a crippling lack of self-esteem and had used food and work to numb myself for years.
Nothing could make up for the lack of self care and self love.
I constantly compared myself to others, felt I never measured up, both professionally and personally. I worried about everything I ate, said, did, didn’t do. I was exhausted all the time.
After crying for months, even while planning my wedding in the Spring and well into the Winter holiday season, I realized my drive, energy, and the “holiday spirit” was missing. It FINALLY hit me – I was just letting life happen, versus intentionally and passionately creating it.
Investing in my health and joy literally changed my life.
Suddenly, I had a whole new passion! I graduated from the Institute for Integrative Nutrition where I learned innovative coaching methods, practical lifestyle management techniques, and over 100 dietary theories – I studied with the world’s top health and wellness experts including Joshua Rosenthal, Andrew Weil, MD, Mark Hyman, MD, Geneen Roth, David Wolfe, and many more.
Professional Training & Certifications:
My signature RTH Method leverages my extensive, cutting-edge knowledge in holistic nutrition, health and mind coaching, and prevention. Drawing on my expertise, I work with my clients to explore limiting beliefs, create empowering ones, help make lifestyle changes and choose health-promoting ways that produce real and lasting results. They develop a deeper understanding of how their mind, impacts their bodies, and their bodies impact their minds. We explore food, movement, and lifestyle choices that work best for each individual, improving energy, harmony, health, and happiness.
I want you to know that you are enough, you always have been!
It took 21 years for me to make peace with my body and even longer to prioritize my own self care. I had to learn that saying yes to myself didn’t mean I was saying no to anyone else or pushing people away.
I don’t want it to take that long for you. The stakes are too high, and you’ve lost enough time already
My childhood traumas of feeling alone, unloved and unworthy led me to a charming at-first, narcissistic, controlling, online predator. I was 16 years old being “loved” by a man who I found out was 10 years older than me on the day I ran away to live with him. It didn’t take long before he was mentally and emotionally abusive for a couple of years before turning to physical abuse. I left him for the safety of my daughter. She is my hero.
After doing my own mindset work, I realized where my “perfectionism” came from. I declared to the world that “I MUST FIND A WAY TO BE PERFECT” due to one day in grade school when friends suddenly started labeling each other: “she’s the pretty one”, “he’s the smart one”, “she’s the funny one”. Guess who I was? “The fat one”.
I felt humiliated. I can’t remember every detail, but I remember how I felt. I must have been 9 or 10 years old, feeling like my body was not good enough. I made it mean that. I made it mean that somehow, my physical body was wrong and that it had to change. I wanted to be the pretty one, smart one, heck, even the boring one – but not the fat one. My whole life after that one point was centered around being the best in every possible way. I lost all the weight before 6th grade. I remember feeling so excited to walk in and show everyone. This perfectionist mindset followed me everywhere and the moment I couldn’t show up as one, the self-sabotage and depression hit.
As I think back today, the reality is, I was the fat one! Physically, I was fatter than all of them… who cares? It didn’t stop them from being my friend! My weight didn’t take away from who I was as a person! Why did I make it mean this? Generational traumas? Society’s ideals?
Today, I see and hear weight stigma everywhere. The truth is, the word “fat” is just like “skinny”, “car”, “love”, “pencil”, “handbag”. It’s just a word. So why do we feel a certain way when someone is called “fat”, compared to “skinny”. It’s just a word. Fat doesn’t mean unhealthy. Skinny doesn’t mean healthy. Fat doesn’t mean bad. Fat doesn’t mean ugly. Fat doesn’t mean less than. Fat means fat. “Fat” isn’t the problem – it’s the meanings we attach to it. I was a beautiful, smart, vibrant fat girl who loved people… and that was always OKAY!
“If you want it, just eat it!”, he said. I had been OBSESSED over counting calories, balancing macros, weighing food, checking nutrition labels for all the wrong reasons. It started taking over my whole life. It was at that moment that it hit me – food was controlling my life.
This was AFTER that New Years in 2018 that I decided to invest in my health and happiness. I was COMMITTED to losing weight because I THOUGHT that was the “problem”. I joined a health program and followed it to a T! (perfectionist, remember?). Heck – I was so proud of the progress I made, I even emailed them (like any perfect student would), and told them about my story. They eventually even got me into their ads!
I had suggested this program to SO MANY friends and family – and here I was, with an eating disorder and disordered eating. Binging sporadically and hopping right back on to counting, weighing, and judging myself.
It was after his words that I took some time to self-reflect. There has to be a better way! Sure enough, I decided I had become so passionate about nutrition – that I started my search: Becoming a nutritionist. One thing led to another, I stopped that diet program secretly disguised as a “health” program and started my new journey as an Integrative Nutrition Health Coach.
For the same reasons above, and after having learned you DON’T NEED to count calories, macros or weigh your food. You DO NOT need to over-exhaust yourself at the gym. These are LIES the industries tell us!!! It’s actually HORRIBLE for your body, your metabolism, your mental health, your gut health! THIS is why my mission is to SHARE, TEACH, INSPIRE people EVERYWHERE to realize, they don’t NEED to suffer, restrict, and LOSE themselves for the sake of a number on a scale.
After receiving my Certification from the Institute for Integrative Nutrition and helping clients immediately, I noticed the repeating trends: negative self-take, emotional eating, limited beliefs, hormonal imbalances, infertility, endometriosis, diabetes… I knew to help more people, I had the opportunity to keep learning and expanding myself. That, is exactly what I have done and will continue to do.